implodingly | Reading

(inspired by chatting with

frameacloud)

Rogan: So, those cursed tapes. I'm positive some of you are like, "Rogan, why are you doing this to yourself?" Well, for years, I've wanted to do a big thing on the whole ritual abuse/RAMCOA/OEA culture/identity and multi, because it's still relevant and important (and frankly scary). There were at least two plurals I considered friends once who went down that rabbit hole, with awful consequences, so it's personal. I want to understand what happened to them and why... and because I'd prefer to do it without rabbitholing myself, I turn to older records from the past.

( The importance of understanding without believing )

lb_lee

Back from the con! It went well! We are very tired but want to upload the notes of Tape #2: "Treatment of Adult RA Survivors," from the 3rd Annual Orange County Conference on Multiple Personality and Dissociation, Hypnosis, and other Strategies, 1990. Hope y'all got your shit-wading boots!

( And the train leapt the track and charged off into the sunset, never to choo-choo again. Warnings for discussions of Satan, messed up therapy, conspiracy stuff. )

Current Mood: D:

lb_lee

On Saturday, Oct. 18, we are tabling at Watertown Zine Fest! It runs from 11-4, at the Watertown Public Library, 123 Main Street, Watertown, Massachusetts 02472. We have cranked out a bunch of paper-only zines, including our headspace essays, queer short stories, and a 32-page Mori/Rawlin comic, Xenogals! Come drop by and check us out!

On Friday, October 24, we will also be New England Graphic Medicine Summit. 10-11 AM, giving a presentation on Many-Selved Portraiture. Located at MCPHS University on Longwood Avenue, but online attendance is also possible! Come see us show off many-selved artistic efforts! There'll be a slideshow!

lb_lee

Mori: listened to a second tape. Hoo boy was it a DOOZY. Enough so that no way am I uploading those notes tonight! It started out nice and boring... and then the second presenter came on and that train just done leapt ROARING off the track, making for the end of the earth like its ass was on fire. Damn!

Well, I have lots of new research to pursue because now I know where that whole dead cat nightmare of 2021 got its roots.

Also it looks like we have a tape of THIS disaster, transcribed here: http://whale.to/b/greenbaum.html (do not go to whale.to, it’s another Qanon conspiracy flat earth crackpot website. Oh god why.)

BUT NOT TODAY SATAN(ic cults). Time to relax with some nice lesbian vampire fiction instead!

lb_lee

Mori: Okay, so apparently we CAN absorb information through audio... as long as the INTERNET isn't involved with it, a blazing distraction of "CLICK ME CHECK ME MULTITASK BADLY!" So putting on a cursed tape with which to time our work shifts of spot-blacking and page-formatting Xenogals Ashcan works out really well! And we took NOTES! :D Which we are posting here for our own convenience.

The first tape we listened to was the one labeled 3-D “Ritual Abuse: Evaluation & Treatment Strategies for Children and Adolescents,” by Kimball Ladien, M.D., at the Believe the Children First Annual Conference. After having listened to the whole thing, I STILL don't know what year it was made, only that it was probably before 1990, because it mentioned the McMartin preschool case positively. The conference took place in Illinois, probably Chicago, and it mostly seemed to be Illinois people.

( Honestly, this wasn't NEARLY as bonkers as I expected it to be! )

lb_lee

We just received a collection of truly cursed audio cassette tapes from the Memory Wars—conference panels, it looks like. We plan to digitize them all and upload them to archive.org after checking to insure the audio is still understandable after 35 years, but being hard of hearing, have very little use for the tapes themselves. If you want one of these horrible cursed objects, please let us know!

The tapes’ labels identify them as:
• 3-D “Ritual Abuse: Evaluation & Treatment Strategies for Children and Adolescents,” by Kimball Ladien, M.D., at the Believe the Children First Annual Conference
• IVe-383-87 Conversation Hour - Child Abuse and Dissociation (“Summit” added in handwriting; maybe from 1987?)
• C153-20 Treatment of Adult Ritual Abuse Survivors
• 15-234-85 Child Abuse and Dissociation (maybe from 1985?)
• 05-834-93 Psychobiology of Trauma: Current Advances in Research... (by) Bessel A. van der Kolk, M.D. (maybe from 1993?)
• Id-383-87 Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and Dissociation (maybe from 1987?)
• (handwritten label) Cory Don Hammond - Dr. Green 4th 1992 Conference (side A) C. Hammond on Dr. Greenbaum (side B)
• (handwritten label) C153-21 The Use of Play Therapy with Child & Adult Survivors of Ritual Abuse: V. Graham-Costain Orange CA 1990
• (handwritten label) Seventh Child Abuse Symposium ‘Cults’- Ritualistic Child Abuse 1986 San Jose CA Meeting Lt. Brad Darling, Kern, Co, Co. (two tapes, labeled in such a way that possibly there’s a missing third)

All things in parentheses are my notes. I have no other info about these tapes at this time, and likely won’t til after con this weekend.

lb_lee

You and the large dog escaped from the dungeon with 100557 points, the amulet of Yendor (worth 5000 Zorkmids), a garnet stone (worth 700 Zorkmids), 1 worthless piece of colored glass, and 1112 pieces of gold, after 19727 moves. You were level 14 with a maximum of 112 hit points when you escaped.

Hit return to continue:

Rawlin: A little past midnight, on October 15, 2025, I did it. I made it to level 40 (Hell) safely, tamed the Hell Hound with treats (Mori: didn’t know you could do that! We didn’t have to fight him at all, renamed him Good Hellhound) and when the Wizard of Yendor made himself invisible and began teleporting through levels, I decided to hell with it and used my painfully obtained wand of wishing to wish for a dead floating eye (Mori: didn’t know you could safely do that either), ate it, and then wished for three potions of blindness. After that, I quaffed both it and a potion of speed, and one or two hits at a time, I whittled him down and finally defeated him.

I used my final wish for three tripe rations, whereupon I climbed up through the dungeons until I returned to Level 9, where I had left my original pet dog for safekeeping. (It is impossible in hack103 for your dog to follow you all the way to Hell and back.) once little, the dog was now large and feral. I gave my dog treats and then we went home together, one level at a time.

I am pleased at my win.

Mori: by the end of the game, dragons were RUNNING from her! Didn’t know that was possible either! Good game, sugarcane.

lb_lee

Rage Against the Regime
Series: LB autobio
Summary: Biff rages out over politics, beats the shit out of a headspace wall, and then goes on a fetch quest to blow off steam.
Word Count: 1800
Notes: Winner of the fan poll this month! If you want to support writing like this (and have your votes count double!), check out our LiberaPay or Patreon! The book referenced is Burnout: the Secret to Unlocking the Stress Cycle, by Emily Nagoski and Amelia Nagoski. Content warnings for consensual sex and the American political everything.

( Hark, adventurer! If only my goat could be brought to my daughter across the sea... )

lb_lee

Mori: in hack103, of course!

We each have our preferred Hack classes. Rawlin likes the wizard.

( Eating monsters, fighting dragons. We need a hack103 tag. )

lb_lee

Rogan: We are uploading our sketchbooks to archive.org. When the uploads finish, you can grab them at https://archive.org/details/@lb_lee/lists/2/lb-works

The scans do not include comics pages, but cover all other pages from 2012-2016: project plans, headmate drawings, life drawing. etc. Please feel free to download copies for yourselves. This seems the easiest way to make sure they aren't lost. They are under a Creative Commons non-Commercial Share-Alike License. 194 MB total.

lb_lee

Mori/Rogan: Guys, we watched Steven Moffat’s 2020 Netflix series, Dracula, we can’t stop thinking about it, and now we’re making it all y’all’s problem.

( the spoileriffic adventures of poutybat Dracula )

buttonsbeadslace

Completed this year:
- Armwarmers
- Ziprelaxagon socks
- Citrus slice #2
- Citrus slice #3
- Yarn swap purse is now fully complete, with lining, inside pocket, closure and strap! I posted some photos on Tumblr here.

Currently on needles:
- Regina Marie pattern with green-blue yarn from Zen Yarn Garden - I posted a progress photo on Tumblr here.
- Leaf shawl that I intend to frog

Yarn stash plans:( Read more... )

lb_lee

Rogan: In my post about a physical newsletter, I forgot another thing we’ve been considering doing to circumvent the bans: make our digital work free and run it on donations like LiberaPay.

( Read more... )

Profile

implodingly

June 2017

S	M	T	W	T	F	S
				1	2	3
4	5	6	7	8	9	10
11	12	13	14	15	16	17
18	19	20	21	22	23	24
25	26	27	28	29	30

Page Summary

Style Credit

Style: Cloudy Days for Ciel by carisma_sensei

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags

Page generated Oct. 20th, 2025 05:08 am

Aw, life, no.

A system doing system things.

Reading

Understanding Without Believing

Tape Notes: "Treatment of Adult RA Survivors," with Een, Ray, and Dettling

LB will be at Watertown Zine Fest, tomorrow, Oct. 18, 11-4!

That sure was a tape.

Tape Notes: Believe the Children Ritual Abuse panel by Kimball Lanier

Cursed Memory Wars Tapes

Goodbye Wizard RawBlood...

LB autobio: Rage Against the Regime

Rawlin fights a dragon

Sketchbooks 2012-2016 Uploaded to Archive.org

Poutybat Dracula

Updated Knitting Inventory

Web Ban Circumvention: Go Free

Profile

June 2017

Links

Most Popular Tags

Page Summary

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags